MEETING THE MORRIGAN
Continued from “Meeting Manannan”
“You must seek the Morrigan,” he said then he released me back to the sea, a signal the event was over and I woke up.
Still and spent I sat before the altar catching my breath and contemplating my encounter. I find myself thinking if Manannan is this intense I should wait a while before encountering the Morrigan. I begin giving gratitude for the encounter with him by lighting sweet grass. I pour eclipse water and some water from Bridget’s well a friend brought me from Ireland in the chalice and think of how to proceed with the Morrigan. Then I take a sip from the chalice to her in acknowledgment thinking, “soon lady soon”
As I swallow the waters, I begin to feel an immediate psychic response and once again get transported back into trance. My consciousness is not in control. It is like I am observing myself. I pull the scarf over my head and put my head down with my hands up toward the altar. The Morrigan has arrived. I can feel her forceful power before me and within me. Clairvoyantly I see her in every detail standing before me. I lower myself in her mighty presence, hands up. She looks down at me and says “You will stand with me in sovereignty and she compels me to physically stand up.
My legs are asleep from being on the floor for the last hour or so from the previous working and do not want to work. All of this is going through my mind as I hear her command “You are Fae, you are Tuatha De Dannon you will stand! True to self and ancestor!
Shakily I rise. Once I am at full height and facing her she touches my chest with her spear. My chest thrust forward, my head fell back, my arms went wide. I feel her sovereign power coursing through me. Clairvoyantly I see her history running through my mind like a fast-moving film clip. My body is suspended that way as she transports me to her side in trance.
“Are you a sovereign being?” she asks. Yes! “Are you of the people?” She asks. I knew she meant her people. Yes! “ Are you a warrior of the people? Yes! I reply.
Suddenly my physical body collapses to the floor. In trance I am now face down at her feet. She stands above me with her spear pointed down at me and she commands me to swear fealty to her.
I cry out to Odin whom I had been very close with. I see him present behind her, he looks on quietly saying nothing, looking disappointed. She commands fealty again and my body feels pain as her spear touches me. I did not want to swear fealty, so I swear sovereignty with her. I feel the pain as she spears me again. She asks for fealty again and I say I will stand with you. In that moment I see Odin turn his back and my heart breaks at the gesture.
I thought swearing sovereignty with her and saying I would stand with her was a way around swearing fealty to her and no other. That might be so in the world of humans but apparently not so in the world of the gods.
As I lay l there crying from the experience and the pain still face down, I clairvoyantly see Odin. He says, “You cannot have us both, you swore an oath to her” and he leaves.
In my time working with the Morrigan she helped me be strong when I really needed it. She helped to keep me focused on what I need for success in life. When that work was done it was difficult to get released from her fealty/oath. But it was more difficult getting back into Odin’s good graces once I did. I had many trials to face, but that is another story.